The Day I Tried to Kill Myself

It's been almost a year since I first started contemplating suicide. And a few weeks since I (almost) attempted one. Moments where you feel like the reasons to die outweigh the reasons to live, by a large margin. And that is in no way an easy thing to narrate. As much as it's entirely up … Continue reading The Day I Tried to Kill Myself



Our lips meet. One pair Too large for the other Unfit and imperfect Yet engulfed in impatience. His mouth tastes like pleasure Of a million dreams Weaved out of a different childhood. I bite on to his wet neck and shoulders The salt - reminiscent of oceans And whole horizons His body letting out a … Continue reading Hourglass

Placebo: The Mindscapes of the Brilliant and the Broken

Abhay Kumar’s Placebo, a documentary film which was released in 2014, had traveled through numerous filming screens and won accolades worldwide prior to its release in Netflix almost two years later. Watch the movie once, and you know why it has been successful in striking a chord with the audience. Quite honestly, I expected the … Continue reading Placebo: The Mindscapes of the Brilliant and the Broken


'You look so worn out...aren't you eating enough?' Familiar faces, familiar questions. 'Or is it too much work?'   But I am thankful, that they mention. 'Yeah, I guess.' I blame the routine. Waking up from another late night monotony Drowning in another cup of coffee. Occupying the same cabin Grinding away at whatever is … Continue reading Lacuna


Recalling the countryside, the song of the meadowlark, the dark green panorama - all surreal and unremembered. Lying on our backs. The caterpillar Slightly grazing the golden skin on your neck. I remember how, You took it in your palms - ever so gracious. How you so coyly ignored My disgustful remarks Your lips parting … Continue reading Everglow